scent

The scent of another man pursuing me has caused  an awakening in my partner.  I am not sure if its a male instinct of "owning" his female, or if he truly see's me for what I am.  But he sure is starting to see that others do. He even bought me flowers.

teach to love

Can you teach some one to love? I suppose every one loves, but its how they direct thier love. Is it directed to material things, fantasy, other peoples things, ideas, or do they love they way one person peforms thier daily routine? Can you teach some one to love uncondionally, and over look your flaws?

the ring

I got engaded in december of...2005. A lot of life has happened since that commitment was made. we bought a house..we had child, of whom just turned four years old..I changed my career to be to be available for my son....and for him to have a normal childhood. Recently my fiance has informed me he no longer wants to marry...we are still I a commited realtionship..do I still wear the ring he gave me...the engadgement ring?

snoop-ing

I recently felt the need to snoop. I did not think it out or prepare my self for what i may find.  Early on the morning of June 5, I picked up my partners phone ( i say "partner" cause we are engaged with a child and he no longer wants to marry me, yet still engaged for 5 years) ... and decided to log into FB from it and see who he has been chatting with, what kind of pictures he had on there...Well i found out he has been hitting on females and asking them to drinks, or offering them photo shoot jobs(the naked kind)...from what i can tell the females ignored him, as they have not responded to his message. I am not ruling out that they may have called him however.  What i am i suppose to do, act like i dont know?  Well i cant admit i snooped.. so i cried.. i gave dirty looks for about a week.  then i confronted him (of course not telling him how i found out) I quoted him word for word.. and he denied it.. So I friended these females on FB .. the first one took about two weeks to accept, so I am pretty sure she told him i sent her a friend request.. the other accepted right away.  I am left with these questions, can i trust him when he goes out to the bars almost every weekend?  trust, respect and passion are the back bone of a good realtionship...

Italian RUDE ness

I being a proud vespa owner, I recently "liked" a small frame vespa face book page, and I posted a picture of my 1980 vespa 50 special.. shortly after i started receiving insults in Italian and part English about my scooter and its authenticity. I have checked the mother f'n Vin numbers I know it is real. So i tried deleting their rude comments.. they kept making them.  I decided not to defend but rather object by deleting my post and removing their objective. I feel like they were targeting me because I am American, so i decided i didn't want to be apart of there small mindedness.  F- them!

electricity

Some times when two people of opposite sex meet, there is instant ELECTRICITY.   I have recently encountered this, normally this would be exciting and satisfying to our animal instinct's when we are single. How ever, I am not single and this instant attraction was overwhelming and hard to ignore. Neither person said anything, nor did anything but try to fight it. Over time, my guard to this person wore down, he was so familiar, and welcome. I could not ignore the electricity between us.

first time

I would like to start be telling you what to expect.

I will use this blog to say what i want to say, when i want to, and when i cant say it out LOUD.